Monday, November 02, 2015

Waves



Hello new month! Lets welcome the month of November :)


Another exciting month for me. Looking very forward to it thou :D :D *smile widely* 









Monday, October 26, 2015

Double A's wedding

Double A's wedding. 1st thing that come to my mind about the word ; Double A is the A4 paper LOL 

Perhaps I'm just being lame. Oh well. Anyways I said Double A is because the groom and bride's name starts from the alphabet A. Avex and Adelyn :) They are one of the sweetest couple that I know! So much love around them. 

Avex's is my beloved cousin brother who so happened to be my photographer for my wedding itself. He is such a good photographer and I really like his works as he really put in a lot of effort into snapping previous moments * Nope, I don't get any commission for promoting him btw* 

Ahhh I can see quite a number of upcoming weddings this year and next year. However, the next upcoming month which is November, I have to excuse myself from attending 2 weddings due to the dates of the wedding itself as it's approaching my due dates. So sorry ya Jess & Wyzek & also Fredrick and his wife :( *Fredrick is a cousin to Erwin so most probably he will still be attending with or without me* Boo! 

Back to the Double A's wedding. 

It was held in Holiday Inn Melaka as both of them are from Melaka. I tell the journey from Subang to Melaka is pretty long for me..try to imagine me with big baby bump and the the back pain T____T I felt the journey was like...err...3 freaking hours!  

Checked into a deluxe room with the hubby. My room was a connecting room to my mom's.


And it costed us only RM280. Hahah damn cheap. Because of the wedding guest hotel rates. I checked the normal rate for the same day and it was rm340 the cheapest from Agoda :/ 


They had their ROM an hour before the wedding dinner. But I missed it as I was resting in my room due to fatigue and back pain from sitting down the whole journey to melaka. Eh I did apologise to the bride and groom before the ROM was held :) 

One of the benefits of being pregnant LOL *Nobody will scold a pregnant lady right?* 

Their wedding agenda was pretty interesting. 

Registration of marriage - 5pm 
Tea ceremony including photography and cocktail session - 6pm
Dinner starts - 7pm 


I missed 2 out of 3 event that day :/  But hey at least give me credit for attending the wedding dinner hehehehehe :P 


The background :)  So sweet! 


With hubby and little baby bump 


With the 2 pretty cousins all the way from Singapore. The last time I saw them was at my wedding which was a year plus ago :/ 



An incomplete family portrait. However, we have a new family member :) :) Little Baby T  


Ladies. L-R : Aunty Teresa, Vivian, Vicky, Aunty Susan, Sis, Berline & Adeline. Mom and yours truly sitting down like a queen :)


Touch my baby bump for good luck huh berline? Haha should have charge you!


With the bride and groom. First time wearing flats to a wedding dinner. Don't remember when was the last time I wore heels. Don't think I know how to walk in heels anymore




Wishing you both eternal love and happy marriage. Hurry up, make babies so my baby has cousins to play with hehe :P



Okay, beep beep. It's time for my short nap. Pregnant lady is tired :( Good night!

Sunday, October 18, 2015

They betting on...



My mom always taught us not to play bet involving money because it'll become a habit when we grow older. So to make it fun, we sometimes bet on food. Losers will buy lunch or dinner, winner gets to choose where to dine but of course with a budget :P 


So recently the hubby and my mom had a bet the gender of my little baby in my stomach *yes, i'm pregnant again* And boom, the hubby won the bet. It's like finally he managed to get to eat crabs which is one of his favourite food. I wonder why. 

I don't fancy crabs as much as he does. Or maybe is just the changes of pregnancy tastebuds? 

So we had our crabby dinner at The Crab Factory @ SS2. Heard about that place but haven't been there so we decided to give it a try and see how was it


Me and my puffy face together with the hubby of course :) 


Mom looked so exhausted :( Must be the lack of sleep T____T 


Crabs came in a bag...


It was so spicy and I basically only ate like...2 small piece of crab meats. Boo pregnancy tastebuds. I can't take spicy foods nowadays :( Somehow I lost my identity lol


SO HOW WAS THE CRABBY DINNER?


Hmm it was basically pricey and not filling. I don't see myself going back there again. But hey, it's just my personal opinion. You can give it a try if you want to

Sunday, October 04, 2015

Full moon

Hello Hello! 

Welcome October. It's only 2 more months to one of my fav month ; Dec! Yay, its' not because of christmas, which I don't celebrate but it's because it's SALE AND IT MEANS SHOPPING TIME! :) :) winks winks 

Who doesn't love shopping spree?? Boo you! 

Anyways, 

recently I attended one of my cousin's baby's 100th days celebration. Baby Jayden is his name. We had a full moon party for him exactly a month after he was born. Somehow there's another 100th days celebration that I didn't even know it exists. Heard it was Jayden's father's culture as his family is from Sibu. Anyone knows about this culture thingy? I'm just curious 




Part of the decoration. I called it Tororo which was obvsiouly wrong. Totoro is it *smacks head*


Found this in pinterest and I thinks it looks so cute! 
Perfect for a baby boy's full moon :) 

Nowadays, modern parents really don't mind spending more on full moon celebration e.g. all the decorations and stuff. I not sure whether am I gonna be one of them but we shall see how then :/ 



The accompany as the hubby couldn't make it. As usual..blame it on work :( 



Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Emotional breakdown


Crazy hormone running inside me :/ 

Have you ever feel like you just wanna go somewhere and clear your mind?

Is like you're tired of so many things at the same time and knowing that the tiredness will remain the same for quite some time? 

 Just tired. PERIOD 


Yea that's right.. Just don't give a shit. 

Let it go. 

Crazy hormonal changes is intense. 

I'll be fine as the time flies *hopefully* 

Monday, August 24, 2015

Ice-cream cake? No?

Don't ya get excited about birthday? I know I do 

When we were little, we always get sponge cake as birthday cake whenever whoever birthday right. Thanks God to technology and modernity *got such word wan meh? lol*, now we have another choice of cake ; ice cream cake! Oh my, ever since I gotten my 1st ice cream cake as birthday cake on my like 19th or 20th (actually I don't really remember), I never turn back to normal sponge cake :) 

Haha ice cream cake rocks babeh *peace* 

I usually buy BR and/or Haagen Dazs cake but this time Baker's Cottage for the father in law's birthday. It doesn't taste any near like BR or Haagen Dazs cake but of course the price is cheaper. 

The reason we got him ice cream cake because mother in law asked us not to purchase any heavy cake and basically, what cake is not heavy? You tell me! Then when we got this cake, she said it's ice cream and it's too cold -.-" 

So hard to please old people! LOL 




Only picture of the cake. No family picture cause I shy :P 

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Waffle!

Hello August! 

I bet everyone heard about Inside Scoop before right? 
I only heard of it (I'm outdated when comes to food) when they opened a branch in Taipan USJ. So far I've been there for like few times..to be exact 4 times. If you asked me what so hype about it, honestly I don't know :/ 

To me, it's just waffle and ice cream with a slight higher price tag on. 





Thursday, July 09, 2015

Thats long..


Wah..I'm surprised my previous post was in May. Doesn't really feel that long ago.. Oh well :)









*still looking for inspiration to write. Till then :)

Monday, May 25, 2015

Just one night

Birthday parties was never my thing. I seldom held parties because I feel it's a hassle and pretty tiring occasion to held lol.  I'm a lazy kind of person so that's the main reason why ;/ 

My man's birthday was few days ago..Since he isn't a fan of parties just like me (yays), so I decided to book a hotel room and bring him out for a good meal. Just a simple birthday celebration. However, poor him as he was on duty on his actual birthday so we celebrated it earlier. 

I booked a room for a night in Concorde Hotel, Kuala Lumpur. It was our first time there. My initial plan was to book a room at a hotel that have good buffet dinner. Then it strikes me that it's a waste for me to go for buffet as I don't eat much although I know he can eat ALOT :S 

So Concorde it is. Located pretty near..erm..like 10minutes walk to KLCC. Not bad la right? Hahaha

Checked in around 2.30pm. Had lunch at Hard Rock cafe because it's just beside the hotel. Lazy wanna drive out and think what and where to eat. Hate to decide what to eat. Sigh 




Fried Battered Fish with garlic butter rice that I don't really find appetising :(



Chicken Masala with rice



Our bed! We slept in after lunch and woke up around 1830hrs to get ready to go for dinner nearby which is of course KLCC. So kiasu, we drove to KLCC whereas it's so near that we can even walk.

Then some more have to pay for parking which costed us RM10!! But my reasoning was, maybe we ended up going shopping and we have lots of bags to carry. Hahaha IN THE END, WE CAME BACK EMPTY HANDED ;DDDDD



How come I look so chubby here? Must be the angle of the phone :/ *self proclaimed* 


We checked out after breakfast the following day because we couldn't have good sleep the night before. I put all the blame to the hotel bed! :( 

Went back to our home sweet home and took a good nap. Our super king sized bed is the best bed ever!!


Although we didn't really do much on that day but it feels good to be away from home once in a while and just spend some quality time together with him :) 

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

New happy! Wohoo


Finally...my dream came true. I always wanted a macbook and finally I owned one now :) Although it wasn't the new macbook but I'm still grateful that its a macbook that I'm using to write this post. 

Oops, now I have no excuse not to blog more often :/ Perhaps I should really start writing back again more often than before ;S 

But I really have no inspiration to write blog more often..Some more my blog is so boring and I'm so lazy sometimes :P *excuses*



Although I'm so happy that I have a new lappy but I feel sad that my old happy died on me :( Asus has served me well and long enough! 

Saturday, May 09, 2015

Hello mummy..


A very Happy Mother's Day to all mother out there. Please spend this special day with your mom even tough you're so occupied with work or with other matters. Because come to think of it, you won't be here in earth able to breath the same air as I did because of your mom. 

Mothers are so noble because I know. It's not easy being a mother unless you became one. Trust me, I KNOW!! 

When I was younger, I never imagine how tough it has to be a mother until recently. Try imagine carrying you in her womb for 9 months, taking care of you since you're born and until now no matter how old you are and love you unconditionally. Not an easy task. Try to become a mother and tell me being a mother is easy, I'll shoot you. If it's easy for ya then good for you. 

Nothing beats mothers' love. Please appreciate your parents. 

Mothers will always be mothers. They always tried their very best to provide their children the very best they could. Of course, parenthood wasn't easy :/ 



Happy mummy day, my dearest mother! Loves



Bear in mind that when you're getting older, your parents are growing older as well. Spend more time with your parents, show them you cared about them and take care of them while you're still able to do so. Time really flies! 




I believe most mothers don't fancy luxury gifts or expensive lunch/dinner, they just want their children to be well and healthy. 

Because if I could, I would exchange my luxury gifts to have my son with me. Miss you! 

Sunday, April 26, 2015

I'm so bored...



And I have nothing to do at home plus i'm pretty lazy to do anything. Hahaha. Still looking for inspirations to start blogging again.


Don't have the urge to blog nowadays. Feeling very dull and too occupied with work.
Thought of resigning and live my life as a full time housewife, can go for high tea and shopping any time I want :P

Till then! Happy Sunday..Tomorrow have to go work already @.@ 

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Moving forward


Like the title said, moving forward. Life goes on no matter what. 

So since we can't celebrate CNY this year, we decided to have a getaway to Bali. We departed on the eve of CNY so we missed the reunion dinner :/ We were in Bali for only 3days due to the tight schedule of work


At MAS lounge since we took business class :)

Flight time was short. Approximately 3 hrs and it was a smooth flight.

Our hotel located in Seminyak, the not so busy city compared to Kuta. We just wanna have a relaxing holiday after everything happened. I was still in the confinement period so I can't swim, drink cold drinks and many more. I was in a strict confinement for a month but my hubby's grandma advised me to go up to 100days and I did. Better to be safe than sorry


@IZE Seminyak Hotel, just along the happening seminyak road :)


We enjoyed their local cuisine especially the babi guling *roasted pork* It was good according to the hubby. 


Went for massage everyday we were there. So cheap and relaxing :D 



Walking along the Seminyak road


Tried their local kuih. Something like pan cake that's what they called it 


Nasi Padang!

Next day, we went for a tour around Ubud and Seminyak area. Hired a driver for pretty cheap cost and the driver was really friendly.





Little shy monkey @.@


At the beach yo! 


Quite an expensive dinner


Our last breakfast while waiting for our driver to drive us to the airport. I need more massage!!


I look so bloated by then. All the water retention! Ugh :( 

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

To let him go..

Exactly two months since he left...

It was a traumatic event for me, I would say. 

I delivered my little baby boy prematurely at 27weeks (11th Jan @ 0946am) because I was having leakage due to infection. It was an unforgettable experience for me since it was my 1st pregnancy. It happened so fast..

My baby boy was so small and under weight when he was delivered. Moreover, he was born prematurely. And I was briefed by the gynae and doctors that there's risk for premature babies. Of course, I understood as I did my research before hand just in case. And also my baby will be placed in the incubator for almost 3months. 

So I have been praying ever since that my baby boy is a healthy little baby and he will be just fine and I can bring him home once he gained the desired weight. 

So the delivery was quick but hard. Heard my baby boy cried. And everything  seemed to be going smoothly. I was so tired after delivery because I was fasting the night before as the nurse wanted to do a glucose test. 


Since my baby boy was premature, the nurses quickly brought him away for a quick check on him and brought him to the NICU to put him into the incubator. I didn't have the opportunity to hold him and I truly regretted it until now. 

The 1st few days, my baby boy was in the incubator doing just fine and healthy. He even responded to us when we talked to him, smiled at us and moved around when we touched him. It was such an amazing feeling. 

We went to the JPN a few day after labour to register him and we got his birth certificate. We were so happy that we have the perfect name for him.

During his stay in the incubator, he got infected with infection but he was on antibiotics and he seemed less active compared to the 1st few days. So I prayed every day and night for his well being. 

Until on the 20th Jan, where he got infected with an infection which was too strong for his immune system to fight it and the doctor said he won't be able to make it because the infection has gone all the way to his brain. The doctor also said that now he is still breathing because of the oxygen support he is getting. 

I still remember the exact words the doctors said and everything. It's still so fresh in my brain. My husband and I broke down when the doctors said that. 

Eventually, we need to put out the oxygen support breathing and let him go in peace rather than suffering. He was having fits when the infection went all the way to his brain. Seeing your very own son in that state really hurts and what hurts the most was we have to decide to put out the breathing support. 

It was so devastating because there's nothing we can do but to let him go. 

And we did it. Before he left us, we had a chance to hold him in our arms, kissed him and talked to him. It was our 1st and last time holding him. I still remember how does his skins feel like, how big was his eyes and how perfect he was. He was our perfect little baby boy. 

My perfect little baby boy, Titus Choi has left us on the 20th Jan @ 9pm. 

I truly believe that he is at a better place now. No matter what, he will never forgetten and always be missed dearly by us. 

I cried when I was writing this post and I feel like I have to let it out so I'll feel better although I promised that I won't be crying anymore. I just couldn't help it. 

No one can truly understand how I feel and been through unless she/he/they was in the same situation as I am. 

***
Until today, I still think of him once in a while and no doubt I really miss him. I do wonder sometimes why he was the one to get the infection. Why him! 

I know that God has plan for me and maybe he was not meant to be my baby boy. So I leave it to fate and of course I'll try again and hoping for the best for the next pregnancies. 

It was a lifetime dreadful experience that I'll never forget. 

I'm grateful that I have all the support I needed by my husband, family members and friends. Thank you! 



Thursday, March 05, 2015

Still feeling it..


Ever since that incident until now, I still think about him and feeling the pain of losing. It feels like I have lost a part of me.  Trying to be strong and putting everything in the past aren't easy but I have to. I know I have to but sometimes I feel that I don't want it to be the past. I want him to be the present and will always be mine. It hurts. 

Many things have changed ever since. I'm not being myself and I know I'm so moody and I get angry more often ever since. 

It feels like why does this happen to me instead of others. I always question why me why me why me. And sometimes why him why him why him. 

I know God has plans for us but it doesn't feel right to take away someone who belongs to me.

Ya ya maybe he doesn't belongs to me. I have been hearing that so damn many times but I just wonder why! 


If only I knew...

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Life is so unfair


What a start for the year of 2015. I have so many plans for this 2015 and for now EVERYTHING has changed. I'm totally devastated and I don't know how am I gonna get through this. It's one of the hardest moment for me and also for my family members. So many people are affected with this unfortunate event. But I'm trying to input this sayings into my brain; what's not meant to be yours, it won't be yours. 


I'm trying to move on and letting it go but for the moment I can't. You have no idea what I've been through. Trust me, it hurts so badly until you feel that you gonna collapse one day.  

I need to be strong which I can't but I'll try. I'm not ready to say it out loud on what am I going through. I need more time. Time will heal right?  But in this situation, I don't think that time will heal. It will not and it will never be..

Sunday, January 04, 2015

Hello 2015!

 
The very first post of 2015! Hello everybody! Lets cheers to a better and blessed year ahead :) 


Am looking forward on what does 2015 awaits me. No matter what, let's just live our life to the fullest! Have a wonderful and amazing year ahead my dearest! :D