Ever since that incident until now, I still think about him and feeling the pain of losing. It feels like I have lost a part of me. Trying to be strong and putting everything in the past aren't easy but I have to. I know I have to but sometimes I feel that I don't want it to be the past. I want him to be the present and will always be mine. It hurts.
Many things have changed ever since. I'm not being myself and I know I'm so moody and I get angry more often ever since.
It feels like why does this happen to me instead of others. I always question why me why me why me. And sometimes why him why him why him.
I know God has plans for us but it doesn't feel right to take away someone who belongs to me.
Ya ya maybe he doesn't belongs to me. I have been hearing that so damn many times but I just wonder why!
If only I knew...